Month: November 2020

Someone

Someone to listen
Someone to share with
Someone to walk with
Someone to pair with

Someone to cherish
Someone to adore
Someone to blow kisses
Someone to cook for

Someone to write letters
Someone to bring flowers
Someone to make tea
Someone to spend hours

Someone to go riding
Someone to wrap gifts for
Someone to enjoy the music
in our hearts, Lord

Someone to watch movies
Someone to pop popcorn
Someone to make dinner
Someone to look good for

Someone to sit by the fire
Someone to hold hands
Someone to desire
Someone to make higher

Someone to have faith in
Someone to wait-up for
Someone to spend time with
or simply to shop for

Someone to encourage
Someone to pillow fight
Someone to love as never before
with all our heart and all our might

Someone to photograph
Someone to admire
Some to watch a sunset;
a sunrise, doesn’t matter

Someone to trust
Someone to respect
Someone to honor
Someone to flatter

Someone to let go of
Someone to return
Someone to be more of
Someone that I yearn

Someone to burn for
Someone to be kind to
Someone to whisper
Someone whom to see through

Someone to touch
Someone to favor
Someone to taste
Someone to savor

Someone to understand
Someone to forgive
Someone to find peace;
that someone from within.

-J

Essence

As I think
I act
in fact
it’s my essence

I consult
myself
the result
more dependence

I feel that way
the way I do
transcendence, unlikely
unless I’m through
replacing the old
with something new

not with dope
or over-drinking
the thing to do
is to change my thinking

the same old thoughts
they lead me to
the same results
the ones I see
why not let go
if never so, if ever so
reluctantly

to change my thinking
a chance to be
a better sort
a better me
then my florescence
might I see
when I change my essence
just for me.

-J

Doin’ Fine

Made the bed this mornin’
I didn’t need no help
Kind of struck me funny
cause I did it by myself

Fried some eggs with some bacon
I put it on the side
This was kind of new to me
Had to put away my pride

Suddenly, I find
the things she used to do
in another place and time
I’m doing for myself
Guess that means I’m doin’ fine

I’m making my own coffee
Filled the sugar bowl this time
Put some milk in the creamer
and paper towels, I did unwind

I put a place mat on the table
the good china on the mat
I couldn’t help but notice
I was sittin’ where she sat

It seemed a bit less lonely
It’s a matter of some fact
I miss her but was doin’
all the things she had down-pat

Suddenly, I find
the things she used to do
in another place and time
I’m doing for myself
guess that means I’m doin’ fine

I think I’ll get the vacuum
If I can find out where it’s at
I’ll dust and let the dog out
I’ll just put her in the back

Seems all these things I’m doin’
I can do without a “knack”
I’ll just straighten out my sorrow
and might not even want her back

I’ll make my lunch,
perhaps, I’ll even have a snack
Do the dirty dishes
and I’ll put them in the rack

I sure do miss her packin’
Love notes, all in a sack
But I’ll be much better off
a just a rollin’ down the track

At dinner time, I’ll struggle
with that Betty Crocker book
I’ll make me some lasagna
just to see if I can cook

Then, I’ll get my slippers
and put ‘em on my feet
I’ll pour a glass of sherry
and then I’ll watch me some TV

I’ll light my own cigar
and I’ll find my favorite show
Put my feet on the table
Hell! cause she will never know

I’ll go to bed eventually
Maybe just to be surprised
that that empty space beside
doesn’t hurt this lonely guy

The moral of this story
if you should take an interest
Is much more than a song
It can really make a difference

Suddenly, I find
the things she used to do
in another place and time

I’m doing for myself
guess that means I’m doin’ fine.

Thanks, I’m doin’ fine.

 -J

The Smile

Amazing
this life
It’s strife
Another day
just like the rest

Heavy
the stress
All the shit
All the while
giving it your best

Months
of no rest
Little done
nonetheless
you go on

Then, the day comes
somehow, prepared for
Unknowing
the therefore
you smile and relax

Worthwhile
the smile
knowing that
you’ve earned the
pleasure just to be

-J

What if…

What if I lose my job
What if the market crashes
What if she leaves;
leaves me to lie, in ashes

What if I get sick
What if I get high
What if I burn-out
or even worse, somehow, I die

What if I get accused
What if I’m forgotten
What if I lose a friend
or I’m merely treated rotten

What if my world is shakin’
What if I don’t get taken
What if I wreck my vehicle
or just swerve on down the road

What if I come in third
What if I come in last
What if my eyes are blurry
or, all a sudden, I lose my fury

What if I lose my wood
What if I get too lonely
What if I reach for you
then, you act like you don’t know me

What if it all runs out
What if I’m stuck
What if I try real hard
but in the end, don’t give a fuck

What if my hair falls out
What if there is no doubt
What if I’ve lived in vain
and there’s no room left for the pain

What if I just stop
What if I just drop
What if I just relax
and give up

What if, somehow, I know
What if I give up this worry
What if I’ve reached a point
a place without a jury

What if “now” is it
What if I’ve been carried, all along
What if God allowed these things to happen
and right here’s where I belong

What if this is my time
What if He brought me here
What if I stop the worry
and with Him, lose all the fear

What if I can finally see
the things that he has shown me
What if my eyes have opened
and see the truth, right here, before me

Has He brought me to this place
of surrender and of glory
Prepared a place for me,
so, I can tell this story

Of how, he let me wander
of how the blind can see
and He was there to guide me
to this place, that’s not of me.

-J

Forces

Forces, subject to forces and we complain,
Don’t like it, we complain again and it becomes a habit
The old man crouched with a sign,
Hungry, cold, barely moving
Without a word, not one, no complaints ever
If I could, would I have the guts,
Would I have the guts to never complain
A better man than I sits alone, this old man
This old man, there, each day
until he dies, teaches me
incomprehensible humility and
the lessons I have yet to learn

-J